19 August, Rasuwa. Kaviraj Ghale was called by his 18-month-old son last Saturday. He woke up.

It was dark when he opened his eyes. Took a while. did not sleep I don't agree with my heart. He went out in the middle of the night to find his son with his running clothes.

"I thought the children were calling, but they were not there," Kaviraj told Online Khabar.

After the flood of August 10, Kaviraj's days are spent wandering in search of children.

He has been reaching from time to time to see the structure of houses washed away by floods in Uttargaya Rural Municipality-4, Parebancy. "I go up and look at the house," he says, "I remember the old days, they are gone now."

Listening to the speech and looking at it - he has a lot to say. But while speaking, his rhythm deteriorates.

His 10- and 8-year-old daughters are also missing due to the flood. "They are sons and daughters born to Rahar," says Kaviraj, "two daughters and one son were lost in the flood."

"Survived when he was on duty in the tunnel"

On the day of the flood, Kaviraj was working in Tunnel-2 of Trishuli 3-B. He entered the tunnel at 7 o'clock in the morning. There were about 35 people in the team.

Being inside the tunnel, they were unaware of the information outside.

"Even now, we can't imagine how we got out," Kaviraj remembers, "the pressure of the wind drove us out."

And then Kaviraj came to know that there has been a catastrophe in Bhotekoshi. There has been a flood that has never been seen in life.

There were 10 people in Kaviraj's group. Vishnu Thapa Magar, Santosh Ghale and others were in another group. "Should I call it fate or what should I say that my duty tunnel fell that day?," Kaviraj said that he could not be happy even if he survived.

He is more disturbed by the incident of losing his children than by chance that he survived. Kaviraj imagines, 'If I was off duty, I would have gone to save my children, or I would have lost myself.'

Kaviraj's wife and elder daughter survived the flood. He says that his wife was saved from the flood because she was out of the village to get grass. The eldest daughter was saved because she went to school.

When he met the team of Online Khabar in Uttar Gaya on Monday, he also narrated the sufferings he was doing for his children.

"I went to Saudi Arabia to earn money," said Kaviraj, "even after returning, I started working to do something for my family." According to him, after working in Saudi Arabia for 6 years, he started working in hydropower near home. He lived with the money he earned.

"We wanted to do something for the family, make a better future for our children," said 34-year-old Kaviraj. But other than his wife, elder and himself were swept away by the flood.

He narrated the pain of losing his children. At the same time, he expressed his anger towards the government and political parties. He thinks that if he could have received information on time, his children could have survived.

But he says that the government mechanism is not enough even for rescue. There was no impression of a government. I could not see the face of the MP who won by voting," he says.

Like him, other people who have lost their relatives also reach the Koshi shore every day knowing the risk. But they say that none of the mechanisms of the state supported the rescue.

I went alone. There was no police, armed, army,” says Kaviraj. He was especially sad for the Nepali Army and the Armed Police. Why did the government protect the Nepalese army? Why have the armed police been kept?'' He expresses his anger, 'If we have to walk to save our lives when disaster strikes, where is the government?'

Those who have lost their relatives are not interested in the relief that has come to the village. What to do to get relief? My family has not been found,' says Kaviraj.

Before the flood in Paherebensi, there was a settlement of people who lived by laboring like the Kavirajs. Children were having fun in the yard. Even though he was suffering, the fire was burning in the stove.

In the settlement, there was talk of the future. But the flood changed the shape of the settlement.

Parebensi now has only ruins of houses. According to the locals, 49 houses were swept away from this settlement. More than 400 people lived in this settlement.

"Most of the people who live in Paherebensi don't have a home," says Kaviraj, "If they ask us to go and live, where will we live?" What to eat, what to cook? What to wear and lay?'

According to the information collected by the locals, 54 people from Pahrebensei are missing. It is estimated by local people that if people from outside are added, it can exceed 70.

Those who survived the flood have been kept in the camp of Bhimsen Basic School in Majhagaon.

Video-Photos: Kamal Prasai/Online News

Rai is the political bureau chief of Online Khabar.

Choulagai, who is affiliated with online news, writes a pen on health wit.